Jhessimer

There she was. Death's angel sitting on the edge of her bed rocking back and forth. So much anger she held within her fragile body, but she couldn't let it out. There was such a monster inside that no one would survive if it surfaced. Not even herself. It was midnight and she was home alone. At first she tried listening to music on her radio, but that only fed the rage and turned it into insanity. If only she could find peace. Glancing out her window she looked at the sky. There was no moon in sight and the stars were hard to make out. But the sky was over powering with it's deep darkness. It was calling her into a peaceful world where no on

Dear Faces, I found a way to reach the sky. If you couldn't see what was happening to me while I was here, then maybe you can see when I leave. I wanted to reach the sky with you, but you were the ones pulling the chains that held me back. The chains were causing me to bleed and obscuring my judgment, but I finally broke through. I hate you all for not telling me the truth. I hate you all for not helping me. I hate you all for everything that's ever happened to me. I found the people who knew. Why did you stay quiet if you knew my turmoil? Why didn't you ask if I needed help? I'm not strong enough to help myself. I was broken and torn. But

I'm wondering, Did you know how much I really loved you? How I would've dropped everything for you? That you were all I wanted? Guess not. I'm wondering, Did you love me as you said you did? Would you have given it all just to be with me? Was it not everything that you wanted? Guess not. Do you care, That I cry under the light of the moon? Why I no longer crave to hold you in my hands? How my soul has left in shame of the love we shared? Guess not. All that I did for you and you really didn't care? Guess not.

The point in life is no longer to have fun, but to survive this world and hopefully make it to the next. What is the one thing that you crave from this life? I crave for the caress and love of one that seems to shun me away. What more can I ask? What more can I say? I love you...? There are deep breaths that follow because it's such a big burden for my shoulders now. A heavy weight that I'm willing to carry because... It's good for me...? Just those few moments together are all I need to make me carry it forever more. Just the laughter that I hear when I joke. The smile melts my heart away. Thinking only of you. Sick of you. Wanting you

Everyone has something in their life that stands out and molds their personality. I am Mary Jessica Bradford because of my love and dedication to band. There were times when I wanted to give up and times when I thought things should have been done differently. But I always believed that band was the positive driving force in my life. Band has taught my commitment, discipline, and leadership. I started band in 5th grade and it was tough. All participants had to give up their recess to take part in band classes. I wanted my freedom to run around, but I also wanted to learn about this long, black rod with shiny button called a clarinet. Over th

Opening my eyes I see the light of eternity. Am I in heaven with the angels watching over me? No, the voices I begin to hear are all too familiar. The nurse, the officer, my mother, and some woman come into focus now. We are all here in this cramped room for one purpose: 26-3229-04. The nurse puts a gentle hand on my shoulder as I attempt to sit up. My mind is a buzz and I am barely able to understand the woman in front of me. Safehouse…counsel…hotline…all there words are pulled out from her talk. I do learn however, that her name is Amy. "You'll be alright." She says. The officer takes a knee by the bed and asks me to give her names and nu

The first time I met you, I knew you were different. You could make me smile when the one I loved made my cry. Love comes in many shapes, sizes, and forms making You as my angel in disguise. My heart beats everyday with the thought of you loving me. It's in your hands For you to mold For you to hold For you to caress For you to smother with unconditional love. How long will this last you ask? As long as we hold dear to loyalty, trust, and truth. May 2, 2005

There's a pain I feel in my heart There's a numbness I feel in my soul. My eyes want to cry tears, But my body is in pain and fear Of why I left you. I left you because your ignorance was too much to bear. Could you not see that our hearts had begun to untwine? "Oh heart please stop feeling this pain and regret. Was it not the right thing to do?" It had been two years of blissful ignorance. Heh, they always say that. Only wanted you to proclaim your love to me. I only wanted you to shout, "Hey! She's all mine! And I'll cherish her forever…" Forever is a short time. How about someone that could love me until the End of time?